So it's been a long while since I've posted. My mom has passed... It has been an experience that is to say the least. There are very few days that go by that I don't think of her, especially with Christmas just a few days away. Going through the Holiday grind has been interesting. It is upsetting(not the right word but don't know of a better one), lonely, like a chunk is missing. I suppose that the hole that I'm feeling will slowly close up till it is just a crack; but now it is a huge abyss.
Went up and bar tended at my Grandparents Christmas party yesterday. Had a good time; but all the way up the seat next to me felt empty... I decided that it really sucked... The ride up, not the overall experience. I get mad when I see elderly couples together; not at them per say but at the whole idea that they get to be together here on Earth and my parents do not... I get over it... I understand that they are together on the other side of the veil; it's just not fair to those of us here. Hell, it's not fair to me! But no one ever said that life is fair huh.
I was praying the other night, I was telling God how much I missed my mother and I realized that I really should be saying I miss my Mother and Father... Though it was just a little more than five years ago that my Dad passed away it sometimes seems like an eternity. I guess that they abyss that I had for him five years ago has slowly filled in... I'm not sure if that's a good thing or not? Time heals all wounds I guess...
Oh Well... Time to go take another step forward.
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